Today is nothing special, I am sitting in a coffee shop, not even drinking coffee..I just like to watch people pass by on the street (you know how I zone out). Today is ordinary, but I sit here and find myself thinking of you and that one time you decided it would be a good idea to take me dancing on our first date. And of course now we know I have to have a bottle of beer before any such event should take place. Im laughing to myself and people are looking but I dont care because they dont know me, they dont understand that I do that some times. They aren't you. It took me a long time to finally get that AH-HA moment (the one where you realize what makes sense) because lets face it, we were young and stupid and selfish and had no idea who we were. Im not saying I know exactly who I am right now but Im better off than I was years ago. You were always that guy that 'wasn't good for me' because you did some stupid/crazy stuff (dont deny it)..and I was always the girl who was reserved and sheltered...complete opposites. We still are opposites in so many ways which is why we work. You understand the things I dont, you're the logic to my nonsensical train of thought, you're the crazy to my reserved. I know that when you are around I can open up to people, something I have always struggled with.
But the truth is my love, no one will know me the way you do. No one will understand why I enjoy doing so much alone or the fact that Im a bit of addict/hoarder for popcorn. No one gets that when I hit a wall or have a panic meltdown I need to be in water immediately. And no one knows my secrets. But you do. You have allowed me to trust someone so deeply that I can be entirely myself without judgement or insecurities. It makes sense to me now why God put you in my life. You're the balance that I have always needed and the happiness I didn't know existed. It is because of you that I have been brave enough to do half the things I've done in my life. It's because of you that Im not afraid of the future or messing up or letting go of things. Thank you for walking in to my class in sixth grade and changing my life. You are without a doubt one of the best things that has ever happened to me.
So, on this ordinary day, on this extraordinary earth I wanted to tell you how much you mean to me. You have changed my world for the better just by walking in to it, for saying yes to Amanda when she forced you to 'go out with me', for taking me dancing on our first date in your old ranger, for all the secrets you've kept, and for the ones to come. I Love You....to the stars and back.
xoxo - Bre
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